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.. i really dont have it in me to do anything productive anymore. i sit there on the computer staring at the computer screen.. dont know what to do.. what to talk about to people... geez. has my life really gotten to the point where i am actually anti-social for reals? dont know why i wake up each morning to see the same problems again, reacurring (sp?) like a bad dream that i can't wake up from. cos really, with my problems at home, i feel stuck. like i am bound to the ground with these chains, every movement i make, hurts and again i am in more pain than i was before.

the distance has finally taken its toll. look at what is has done to me ._. i dont blame you kan i know you're trying so hard to get to me, its not your fault mmkay? so dont feel pooey. what we have to go through right now.. gosh, i'm hating every bit of it. you're busy with your family, me.. heh. im just like sitting at home... waiting either for ur call or for you to pop up on the corner of my screen.. then we talk, then it hits again; you have to go.. loneliness again. so i go onto ragnarok, sit there.. staring at the screen.. then your character clones walk pass.. gee.. rubs it in even more. dont have it in me to play, cos it just feels so wrong for me to be playing by myself without you. can't really talk to anyone, cos no one that i know is on (fkn guild is always dead.. *annoyed*), so i try to find other people to play with.. but they're playing styles, i dont like.. so i just say i have to go. look at msn.. go thru all the nicks.. nope, no one to talk to.. everyones boring, everyones got their own thing to do, everyones got their own shit to deal with, everyones living their lives.. unlike me. no life, no happiness, nothing.

what am i susposed to do? guess tafe might help me get back on my feet.. then work.. then my busy hectic life schedule.. no time for rag, and possibly no time for kan since living two timezones is hecka hard. *sigh* oh just forget it, why am i thinking like that anyway.. hopefully things would be better than that.. but then again.. nothing ever goes good or smooth for me, so pif why should i hope. yes, im a pessimist.. so shut the fuck up.. and yes i have issues, so shut the fuck up.

... its kinda like.. im taken, but im single.. lol..im living a single life? gosh that sucks hardcore. I DONT WANT TO LIVE A SINGLE LIFEEEEEEEEEEE. ._. i haven't had a real hug in so long... my body is craving for that. a lil cuddle would do, anything.. a poke even.. a kick, stab, jab, punch.. anything... PHYSICAL INTERACTION PLEASE.

"love has made me a fool
it set me on fire and watched as I floundered
unable to speak
except to cry out and wait for your answer
but you come around in your time
speaking of fabulous places
create an oasis
dries up as soon as you're gone
you leave me here burning
in this desert without you..."
- Sarah McLachlan - Stupid

its true.

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who am i? name: katie age: 18 d.o.b: 05/02/86 breed: asian; chinese where: sydney, australia <3: kan, net, music, ragnarok online, winamp >=: annoying retards, public transport, people that nag a lot (my mum), working, complicated situations music: chill out, alt. rock, rock, rnb, hiphop, trance, breakbeat do you suck?: no, i lick.. XD ...more? randoms time always reveals the lonely light of morning the wound that would not heal it's the bitter taste of losing everything that I have held so dear. - sarah mclachlan - fallen playlist three days grace - just like you maroon 5 - she will be loved eskimo joe - from the sea avril lavigne - nobody's home (live acoustic) muse - time is running out yeah yeah yeahs - maps sugarcult - memory keane - somewhere only we know new found glory - all downhill from here flood me kan recent entries fuck humanity. possession!! i want you now. ... wtf??	stupid Wednesday, July 14, 2004 .. i really dont have it in me to do anything productive anymore. i sit there on the computer staring at the computer screen.. dont know what to do.. what to talk about to people... geez. has my life really gotten to the point where i am actually anti-social for reals? dont know why i wake up each morning to see the same problems again, reacurring (sp?) like a bad dream that i can't wake up from. cos really, with my problems at home, i feel stuck. like i am bound to the ground with these chains, every movement i make, hurts and again i am in more pain than i was before. the distance has finally taken its toll. look at what is has done to me ._. i dont blame you kan i know you're trying so hard to get to me, its not your fault mmkay? so dont feel pooey. what we have to go through right now.. gosh, i'm hating every bit of it. you're busy with your family, me.. heh. im just like sitting at home... waiting either for ur call or for you to pop up on the corner of my screen.. then we talk, then it hits again; you have to go.. loneliness again. so i go onto ragnarok, sit there.. staring at the screen.. then your character clones walk pass.. gee.. rubs it in even more. dont have it in me to play, cos it just feels so wrong for me to be playing by myself without you. can't really talk to anyone, cos no one that i know is on (fkn guild is always dead.. annoyed), so i try to find other people to play with.. but they're playing styles, i dont like.. so i just say i have to go. look at msn.. go thru all the nicks.. nope, no one to talk to.. everyones boring, everyones got their own thing to do, everyones got their own shit to deal with, everyones living their lives.. unlike me. no life, no happiness, nothing. what am i susposed to do? guess tafe might help me get back on my feet.. then work.. then my busy hectic life schedule.. no time for rag, and possibly no time for kan since living two timezones is hecka hard. sigh oh just forget it, why am i thinking like that anyway.. hopefully things would be better than that.. but then again.. nothing ever goes good or smooth for me, so pif why should i hope. yes, im a pessimist.. so shut the fuck up.. and yes i have issues, so shut the fuck up. ... its kinda like.. im taken, but im single.. lol..im living a single life? gosh that sucks hardcore. I DONT WANT TO LIVE A SINGLE LIFEEEEEEEEEEE. ._. i haven't had a real hug in so long... my body is craving for that. a lil cuddle would do, anything.. a poke even.. a kick, stab, jab, punch.. anything... PHYSICAL INTERACTION PLEASE. "love has made me a fool it set me on fire and watched as I floundered unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer but you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places create an oasis dries up as soon as you're gone you leave me here burning in this desert without you..." - Sarah McLachlan - Stupid its true. 0 Comments. Name. URL. [to enter your email, use "mailto:youremail@domain.com"] Subject. Comment. Word verification. Copy the first 4 characters only. If you are a member, try logging in again or accessing this page here.